Pregnancy

Oh well, as you can see it’s been a while since my last post, everything went crazy after that, as all of you can imagine, pregnancy is a huge amazing crazy ride…. i am 7 months pregnant now….it is such a rush…she kicks, and moves, and turns and keeps me up all night, when she is hungry she makes my tummy ache bad, she has her preferences when i am laying in bed, so i have to stay changing positions until she finds one that pleases her, she is quite heavy for my tiny body, my belly is hard and round and don’t even get me started on the boobs section.
Everything is going great with the pregnancy, her weight is normal, and my blood work is fine too, i think she is going to be tall like her father ( who is constantly talking to her and making her kick some more ).
I have one friend that just had a baby boy and another that is going to have a baby girl this week….life is changing soooooooooooo fast!
It is hard for me to grasp the concept. I am filled with responsibilities that are going to be with me for the rest of my life, and i am having a kid, when i am just a kid myself. Yes i am 26, almost 27 years old, but i am really young at heart and mind, it is really hard to adapt. Sometimes, even with this enormous belly i still forget that now i have some limitations.
It has been quite an experience…at the same time i can’t wait to see her face, to be with her and take care of her, even when i suffer with the thought that she will eventually grow up and leave me…yes…that is how crazy becoming a mother is, she isn’t even here yet and i am already having that kind of paranoia of being “abandoned” by someone i love so much!
The year of 2013 was a crappy year for me, and if it wasn’t for her i would be in a really bad shape ( even worse than i get sometimes ).
Life gets a little bit more complicated every step of the way, it is hard to keep a sane mind.
You have to have something or someone to live and fight for, and Giovanna, my baby girl, you are the one that keeps me going!
Love You, can’t wait to see you!!!

 

Baby on the way…

yep… not much to say… the title says it all… baby on the way people!

 

Confessions…

I confess I never saw this coming never thought you would be still on my mind
I guess I just wished all your songs were about me and the way I miss you I cannot describe
you don’t know how many times I wish I could turn back time
I would find a way to make you mine
to make you love me the way I love you and make you miss me and take me away with you
we are better together and now banana pancakes in the rainy morning don’t taste the same
i want to hear your voice singing to me and calling my name
I want to wake up and see a text message on my phone
I want to know before i see it that it’s you the message is from!
I know it seems a bit too late
I have a new life and so do you
I guess I just thought that this would never happen so i don’t know how to fix it
I don’t know how to be with you
back then you made me feel so happy even though it was a childish thing
I just wanted to stop feeling so crappy
i just wanted for you to feel the same
now a long time has passed and
I got have a different life than you do
I don’t know how I’m supposed to go on
if when i sleep at night all I still dream about is you
Good times when i had you all to myself all day
I couldn’t wait for the night to be over with so i could see your face
Your smell, your voice, your kiss, it got stuck in my mind
Nothing else compares to what i felt
And to how i still feel inside

 

My thoughts about myself

there are a lot of type of girls each girl has her own personality hopes and dreams someone to be dancers someone to be doctors some even want to be president
I believe that God gives each and everyone of us a gift and we all want to be this or that because God put the desire inside of our hearts there are cases where the person finds some other thing that makes them happy as much as the other desires that they have those are lucky
me? I always have been the type of girl that dreams about the same thing and that is how I know that this is what I meant to be this is me yes I have always wanted to be a singer a famous person singers/actress I know how hard it is and I know that 26 is not the best age to start but there was always a problem or something or life holding me back
being on the spotlight is All i ever wanted it’s what truly makes me happy no I am not exceptional I do not have the most amazing voice ever nor the incredible acting skills but I do have the will the drive I can be amazing I just need a chance I need someone to have faith in me and train me and I will do great
I know a lot of people want that and you may ask me why am I any different from them why do I deserve it more the truth I am not different there are a lot of people that want this and dream about this as badly as I do and I do not deserve it more or less than them the truth is that this dream is big but so is the world and the opportunities in it I just want to have the chance to be truly happy before I leave this world and this music movies red carpets people knowing me in screaming my name because I made a difference in their lives this is what I Dream about!

 

I see the Light……..

Because someday i will be singing this to myself…knowing that i will finally be as happy as i ever wanted to be, doing exactly what i wanted to do!

The dream Will Come True!!

“All those days watching from the windows
All those years outside looking in
All that time never even knowing
Just how blind I’ve been
Now I’m here, blinking in the starlight
Now I’m here, suddenly I see
Standing here, it’s all so clear
I’m where I’m meant to be

And at last I see the light
And it’s like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it’s like the sky is new
And it’s warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted

All those days chasing down a daydream
All those years living in a blur
All that time never truly seeing
Things, the way they were
Now i’m here shining in the starlight
Now it’s here, suddenly I know
If it’s here it’s crystal clear
I’m where I’m meant to go

And at last I see the light
And it’s like the fog has lifted
And at last I see the light
And it’s like the sky is new
And it’s warm and real and bright
And the world has somehow shifted….”

 

 

Born and Raised

 

 

Ok, it is no secret how much i love John Mayer and his way to write songs, specially because everything that he writes i feel like i could have written myself.

The way he sees things are so similar to my points of view that sometimes when im listening to one of his albums i don’t know how he can write exactly what i think or how i feel, it is truly amazing…. Well the albums and the lyrics grow as he does and as i do too, so that makes me even more static cause every album he does, seems to follow my train of though as i mature and grow along with him even though he`s older than me…

This song is something that speaks deep to my heart…

Now and then I pace my place
I can’t retrace how I got here
I cheat the light to check my face
It’s slightly harder than last year

CHORUS
Then all at once it gets hard to take
It gets hard to fake what I won’t be
Cause one of these days I’ll be born and raised
And it’s such a waste to grow up lonely

I still have dreams, they’re not the same
They don’t fly as high as they used to
I saw my friend, he’s in my head
And he said, “You don’t remember me, do you?”

CHORUS
Then all at once it gets hard to take
It gets hard to fake what I won’t be
Cause one of these days I’ll be born and raised
And it’s such a waste to grow up lonely

I still got time, I still got faith
I call on both of my brothers
I got a mom, I got a dad
But they do not have each other

CHORUS
So ride on up, take your place
And show your face to the morning
Cause one of these days you’ll be born and raised
And it all comes on without warning

 

The Journey

 

I am still stuck in the middle….doing a lot of things, trying it all and hoping to find Myself in the process…

I just know I was made for greater stuff….wish me luck….

 

March 8

Women’s Day

“You can never hope to grasp the source of our power”

This is us!

as i just posted on the quick press…

work,study,home,husband,kids,dog,parents,business,finance…everything is up to us!

We give up our hopes and dreams to take care of the ones we love, to do what we HAVE to do!

we are fighters!

Buffy….it might seem silly, but she is a big part of what made me a fighter!

If you ever break the prejudice and find the time to watch it, you will see.

She is a great influence for young women!

“The hardest thing in this world, is to live in it….Be brave….live”

“Strong is Fighting! Is Hard, Is Painful, and is EVERY DAY!!”

Nothing can take us down ladies!

Even when everything sucks and we want to give up, even when we give up for a minute or two, remember that we have the world on our shoulders, we can afford to cut ourselves some slack sometimes!

is ok to feel helpless and lost, as long as after that you pick yourself up and snap out of it!

We have the power! we just have to believe in ourselves!

Happy March 8!

It`s our day!

 

Quick Press

Working at Paradise Tourism, Doing MBA in marketing,sales and business, Studying english,having singing lessons at last and organizing my home!

 

Love this song!

It´s when i hear some songs like this one that i understand the artist in me. It is when the melody and lyrics invade my soul and make me weep…that´s when i know who i really am!

Five For Fighting lyrics :
“Chances”

Chances are when said and done
Who’ll be the lucky ones
Who make it all the way?
Though you say I could be your answer
Nothing lasts forever
No matter how it feels today

Chances are we´ll find a new equation
Chances roll away from me
Chances are all they hope to be

Don’t get me wrong I’d never say never
Cause though love can change the weather
No act of God can pull me away from you

I´m just a realistic man
A bottle filled with shells and sand
Afraid to love beyond what I can lose when it comes to you
And though I see us through yeah

Chances are we´ll find two destinations
Chances roll away from me
Still chances are more than expectations
The possibilities
Over me
Eight to five, two to one
Lay your money on the sun
until you crash what have you done?
Is there a better bet than love?
What you are is what you breathe
You gotta cry before you sing

Chances chances

Chances lost are hopes torn up pages
Maybe this time
Chances are we´ll be the combination
Chances come and carry me
Chances are waiting to be taken
And I can see
Chances are the fascination
Chances won’t escape from me
Chances are only what we make them
And all I need