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a little grey’s

“we spend a lot of time focused on the future, planning it, working toward it. But at some point you start to realize your life is happening now. Not after school, not after university, right now. This is it. It’s here. Blink and you’ll miss it.
Did you say it? “I love you. I don’t ever want to live without you. You changed my life.” Did you say it? Make a plan. Set a goal. Work toward it, but every now and then, look around; Drink it in ’cause this is it. It might all be gone tomorrow.”

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Posted by on March 21, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

swans

by my side you’ll never be
by my side you’ll never be
cause im fake at the seams
lost in my dreams
and i want you to know
that i i cant let you go
and youre never comin’ home again
and youre never comin’ home again
by my side you’ll never be
by my side you’ll never be
you’ll never be
i wanted to tell you i changed
i wanted to tell you that things would be different this time
i see you you see me differently
i see you you see me differently
you tell me that you love me but you never wanna see me again
you tell me that you love me but you never wanna see me again
you tell me that you love me but you never wanna see me again
you tell me that you love me but you never wanna see me again

 
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Posted by on March 11, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

stars

it’s been a long time since i had the best dream ever

i had this dream only twice in my life but it was the best feeling ever

i would fly and through the night with me flying alone in the huge dark sky with all the stars i felt free and happy

i would fly above the great cities i want to know and i would just feel the cold wind in my face and look at all the beauty right there in front of my eyes….and i could reach it all with my own hands….

man….that was the best dream!

i miss having it!

the only down side to it is that i felt  empty after i woke up

anyway…..

i want to be able to dream that again!

 
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Posted by on March 11, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

one of the reasons

so my family

i have a bunch of crazy ambitious without morals creeps!

they fight each other over money and power and status and turn on each other and the next day they all pretend like nothing’s happened and that they love each other again which they never really did in the first place!

it’s what i would call hell on earth having a family like that even because i don’t care about them i hope they end up killing each other but the moment i have to put up with them on behalf of my mom the scenery changes.

stressed out till the last drop of sweat of my already tired out body!

i just don’t have enough!!!

no wonder i wanna go far away live alone and see only my mom and dad once a month!

and never ever look at the rest of my family again!

so easy to kill a spirit and so hard to build it up again why people are so selfish?!

bunch of idiots!

that can’t decide on which side they are on!

“they screwed me up but i guess im gonna pay a visit just to see how are they doing”

OH GO TO HELL ALONG!

that’s so pathetic it’s sad!

once you are there…you are there! there is no coming back from that!

it’s a 3 year fight OVER MONEY!!!!!!!!!!

ridiculous, stupid, pathetic,outrageous,uncivilized,barbarous,Archaic, they are like savage beasts!

and the list goes on…..

this all has gone beyond everything  i’ve ever seen on television! they are a poor taste tv series!

uuuuuuuuh i needed to get all this off my chest !!!!!!!!

no wonder i need a shrink!

 
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Posted by on March 11, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

listening to this 24/7

The storm is coming but i don’t mind.
People are dying, i close my blinds.

All that i know is i’m breathing now.

I want to change the world…instead i sleep.
I want to believe in more than you and me.

But all that i know is i’m breathing.
All i can do is keep breathing.
All we can do is keep breathing now.

All that i know is i’m breathing.
All i can do is keep breathing.
All we can do is keep breathing now.

All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing.
All we can do is keep breathing now.

 
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Posted by on March 7, 2010 in Uncategorized

 

the song

I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I’m becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can’t you see that you’re smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
?Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you

(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I’ve become so numb I can’t feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I’m becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know I may end up failing too
But I know you were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

 
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Posted by on March 5, 2010 in Uncategorized